Having descended onto this planet in the middle of the last century, which might have made me feel old were it not for Captain Sir Tom Moore deciding to change the world at 99 3/4, and Anthony Hopkins winning his second Oscar aged 82, introducing me is a lengthy undertaking. However, there are a few snippets about me below, and you can always invite me to speak at your group or organisation if you want to know more. I can't wait to get back onto the live stage, but in the meantime on-line will have to suffice.
I've had 5 goes at this because quite frankly I hate writing about my past and myself, but I also know that potential clients need to know what kind of person they're considering working with. Has this person experienced difficulties in their life, are they sensitive and empathic, do they care about others, will they understand your suffering? The answer is that as much as one person can understand another, I will understand.
I understand excruciating loneliness at the worst times in my life, someone close to me dying seems to be a trigger for everyone to disappear into more important things, and I've had many dark nights of the soul. My ex also destroyed not just my relationship with my family but their relationships with each other. When I finally went back there was nothing left and it was the most heart-breaking thing to see.
I understand acute anxiety at a very personal level, and how it can turn you into someone you don't even recognise, with a mind that seems to refuse all your efforts to bring it under control. I know what it feels like to be okay one second and terrified the next for no apparent reason, and I had that feeling for over 40 years. I do not have that feeling now unless something happens that would unsettle anyone. The cure happened through the spiritual route I've followed and developed all my life, and because I'm open to learning anything that may be of use to myself or others. That's how you stumble over your answers, an open mind and a 'tell me more' attitude.
I understand what it's like to be forced down paths you never wanted to walk because someone thought they knew best, and have your dreams crushed before they were born - in my case because educating a girl was seen to be a waste of money (wow that dates me!). There are many reasons why we lose confidence, but most of mine revolved around me being female, so to an extent I understand what it feels like when something you can't control is used as a method to hurt you. I also know what it's like to feel that your life has gone so hopelessly wrong there's no putting it right, and I know that isn't true. I did put my life right and continue to improve it.
I felt like the biggest idiot on the planet, so much ability and love for life, a few talents, and always too scared to try to step forward because I was just waiting to be hurt by someone. One example was when I felt inspired to write a play for my amateur dramatic group to perform. I will admit that I was surprised how well it turned out. When you write a new play you have to be prepared to re-work the lines in case they don't sound as good as they did in your head. So we did that. At the first performance a friend came up and said "Listen to everyone laughing at your work Deb!", and quick as a flash someone I'd also though of as a friend said "That's only because the cast re-wrote those lines". I was devastated - talk about "If you can deal with triumph and disaster and treat those two imposters just the same" ("If" by Rudyard Kipling). My friend pointed out that the lines wouldn't even have been there if I hadn't written them, and in fact they'd changed very little - in this particular case it was 2 words, but I was just too hurt by everything at the time to risk trying again.
Now I would have gently said that wasn't very kind or true, and carried on with my life as before, because I trust myself and would understand that person felt the need to be nasty to someone and I was a handy target. Their feelings not mine, their words, not mine.
I could go on and on in this vein as most areas of my life have been negatively impacted by the people who were around me in the past, but in truth I don't recommend that anyone considers their past to be a viable place for a visit, and I don't preach what I don't practice. You wouldn't go on holiday to a sewage handling plant would you? So why visit a past that literally doesn't exist anywhere unless you think about it?
Suffice it to say that over the years I've been studying and gathering knowledge and information, many amazing people have impacted me, some famous, some not so famous such as my dear friend Luke Rymell The Spirit Artist, and my nearly-sister Katrina Spencer. Not to mention my second rather lovely husband, and all my cats. As well as my incredibly patient and loving Spirit Guides, family and friends in spirit, and the odd connection to Source Energy. Now THAT's a story that I'll put up on the miracles page at some point.
So many magical people and things have impacted this life, and I try to do the same for others now, but nothing has impacted me more than the work of Dr Joe Dispenza, Gregg Braden, Mike Dooley, Andy Dooley, and Abraham Hicks and the Law of Attraction. See the Inspirers Page for links to their websites.
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